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Journal Entry: Fri Sep 7, 2007, 11:33 PM
I've finally reached that phase in life. The one where I realize I'm growing up, and I've lost interest in Anime. I've been slowly losing interest over time, but now it's hit a point where I do not want to draw in the style, nor watch anything. I've lost all interest in Anime. Maybe occassionally I'll find a good manga to read, but I'm no longer going to allow myself to delve into fandom. I don't think it's a bad thing, I want to work on my own styles, my own fantasy worlds and creations. My novel has been sitting on the sideline for months, and I've been desperately wanting to continue with it. I've just been sitting at a stalemate, not knowing what I'm going to do with my future. It's led me into an artists block, yet again.

I've reached a point where I am no longer in school, and lost beyond all words to what I am going to do. The simplest thing is get a part-time job, but beyond that? Clueless. I've had two failed attempts at picking a career path, and spent two years in college for things that are leading me no where. Art as a job? Nope. I don't have the drive or interest to design for other people. It's a hobby, I draw what I want, when I want (which unfortunately has become rather infrequent this summer). Vet Tech? No, don't like the career. I tolerated my co-op for over a month, but it just proved to me that I am not suited for the job. I don't enjoy medical oriented careers, as the setting is too frustrating, and I really feel there is too much on the line. Perhaps I just don't feel ready for that kind of responsibility. Who knows.

The bottom line is, I need to take my time to figure out where I'm going in life. No more rushed decisions. Anyway, I've cleared out my journals (which dated back to like 2003), and moved all my art into scraps. It's still viewable, but everyone who visits has probably noticed my lack of activity. Perhaps in the future I will return when I've found my way and style, but for now I want to work on what -I- like, without worrying about comments or what others will think.

I want to work on realism, along with animal portraits (realistic and cartoon), and develop my own style to draw character with. It's going to take a lot of time to retrain myself from anime, but I believe the end product will be something I'll truly be proud of. I can't wait to finally produce a piece I'd be proud to hang on my wall. Fantasy creatures are a lot of fun, and I hope to work more with studying animal physiology to develop my own creatures.

Thanks for all the views and support, and hope that one day I will be back again!

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~KENSHINRO7:iconKENSHINRO7: 6 days 25 minutes ago
Thanks, I really like death note a lot it inspired me to write my first fan fict, But I do have my own projects so that's why I don't have part 2 of the fan fict ready yet, but it will be soon. I'm working on an Rpg to send to a videogame company and my very first manga/comic, So I was trying to get a little attention with this fan fict because I know that my manga will be coming soon, so better early then trying to push things for myself when the book hits. lol Well that's my opionion anyway, Thanks for the comment hope you had a chance to read the fanfic.

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~dictatorofrandomosia:icondictatorofrandomosia: May 3, 2008, 5:23:05 PM
Wow.
Way to self-advertise.

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~kiiru-kun:iconkiiru-kun: Apr 27, 2008, 2:01:08 AM
Great gallery and work, I hope you manage to find your place in the world, and what you want to do, and come back in full swing asap! :-)

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~KENSHINRO7:iconKENSHINRO7: Apr 20, 2008, 6:43:00 PM
Hello nice Death note work, please check out my page I write stories for anime and games, I've started a death note fan fiction. Please view it and comment also tell other fans of Death note to vist my page, my version of the fan fict L gains a special ability. Read the fan fic to find out more. Hope you vist my page thanks. and again awesome work with the death note pics.

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~jalex90:iconjalex90: Apr 14, 2008, 12:48:30 PM
I like your galery! but you should put them into a category xD
it's all in your scrapbook, it's kinda sad, cause you have great stuf ^^
love ya!

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~szemin:iconszemin: Apr 6, 2008, 9:17:05 PM
quite real ...so cool............
*purplenekochan:iconpurplenekochan: Mar 19, 2008, 2:00:27 PM
I am holding an OC tournament :) the prizes are good .. if you are interested, read more about it here ==> [link]

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~Kankuroulover:iconKankuroulover: Mar 17, 2008, 1:49:00 PM Mood: Affection
just want u to know I added one of your pics to my favorites,, i feel sorry Ryuuzaki that he died T_T he was cute. :)

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~lilpixie132:iconlilpixie132: Mar 12, 2008, 8:18:40 AM
Very talented, I must say. <3

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~One-Ee:iconOne-Ee: Mar 7, 2008, 6:15:10 PM Mood: Love
your D.N L pic is lovely.

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~lordofthelight:iconlordofthelight: Feb 23, 2008, 12:11:31 AM
Nice art -why's it all in the scraps?-

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~narutotard103:iconnarutotard103: Feb 22, 2008, 4:00:47 PM
hi :3

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~Grim-Rivers:iconGrim-Rivers: Feb 15, 2008, 10:13:52 AM
Insomniacvampire is a sexy name!
~Eien-no-hime:iconEien-no-hime: Feb 7, 2008, 8:21:06 AM
hm... your art is really grate! ...but i got one question...
why do you submit everything in scraps? :confused: sorry...silly question...but still..... Why?

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~twilightchildriku:icontwilightchildriku: Feb 1, 2008, 5:29:04 PM
hey you pic "death note L"
i think its really pretty
do you mind if i use it at the end of a manga music video (i ran out of time but still have music playing) its a really awsome pic and it would make the extra time not be wasted

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~Kablobish55:iconKablobish55: Jan 27, 2008, 7:05:28 PM
Your scraps are FANTASTIC!!!

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~jessie-wessie:iconjessie-wessie: Dec 22, 2007, 10:50:46 AM
really good scraps there :D

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~silentanimeangel:iconsilentanimeangel: Nov 17, 2007, 7:36:08 PM
your [link] is SOOOO amazing! its so detailed and everything! i luv it so much!

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=sarjan:iconsarjan: Nov 8, 2007, 9:45:26 PM
hello:)

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~ttbloodlusttt:iconttbloodlusttt: Oct 21, 2007, 6:35:33 PM
thanks for the fav! ^.*

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~mudpie-eater:iconmudpie-eater: Oct 12, 2007, 1:49:53 PM
omg! you went 2 anime north? so did i! lol. r u goin to ac3? : D

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~NakamuraNekosama:iconNakamuraNekosama: Oct 8, 2007, 10:25:31 AM
Hey I added your L piccy to my faves I love it ^.^

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~anime-tiger09:iconanime-tiger09: Oct 4, 2007, 8:40:09 AM Mood: Joy
awesome gallery you got

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